I want this newsletter to be a more personal space again, I will link my work in the end but want this to carry my thoughts.
This year has been intense. Energetically this is the year where everything that’s not aligned – will crumble. The truth will slap us in the face, until we can’t look away anymore. And many of us find ourselves in the uncomfortable in between.
I left my two year relationship in the beginning of the year, changed my living situation (writing this text from Lisbon) and had many realisations about misaligned friendships. No shade, just changes.
I had a weirdly personal conversation with a guy in a coworking café this morning and we ended up speaking about exactly this, and he had a metaphor I loved: Sometimes you upgrade to a new and better surf board that you don’t know how to handle yet, and it feels like you can’t surf anymore. But it’s actually about learning to live on this higher frequency (aka the new surf board).
The in-between is never easy. I find myself with a nervous system that needs more regulation than normally. And comparing where I’m at in life with strangers on the internet (which is never a good idea).
But truth is, besides the loneliness of starting new, I feel fine. I’m looking at the smaller things in life, started going to Portuguese class and am connecting with nature in a new way. I read a book! And I’ve met some lovely people in the past weeks and months that showed me that spaces we make in our lives can be filled with something even better. Most importantly: I’m learning to be with myself, over and over again.
Sending love,
Sonja
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